I'll never grow old ... and some of my other favorite fantasies!

I’ll never grow old … and some of my other favorite words of fiction!

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

"Award-winning" MASTER OF EMOTION!

MASTER OF EMOTION won 3rd Place in the ANWA Beginning of Book Contest (Young Adult Category)! Here is my entry if you want to read it.
Chapter 1 – “Sorry.”

It was the same feeling every time. My legs wouldn’t move.

He stood at the end of the crowded middle school hallway, his lifeless eyes boring a hole into me. Eyes of the walking dead. Body of any other pre-teenager. Everyone around us hurried and bustled, completely unaware of him.

He staggered toward me, his head hung low and the hood of his sweatshirt now shrouding his face. Methodically, his feet dragged with every step, as if he forced them on, using perpetual motion to push down the hall. He walked like a pallbearer carries the casket of his dead mother.

I wanted to run, to hide, to get as far away from the school as I could, but my feet had sunk down into the tiles of the hallway as if I wore cement shoes. They wouldn’t even budge. Not even a single crack.

He adjusted the strap of his backpack as we passed. I stood there, unable to move, as the boy’s exposed hand brushed against my bare shoulder. The touch only lasted a millisecond, but it hit me with the force of a collision that ripped through me and doubled me over.

My chest was imploding. Darkness filled my head and my limbs, the pit of my stomach, and choked down my throat.

“Sorry,” he mumbled as passed.

The hallway pushed in on me, squeezing me like a python suffocating its prey, but the world felt distant, like all its inhabitants had turned their back on me. The darkness consumed me, seeped through my skin like thick, cold tar. It filled me with uncontrollable grief and isolation that weighed down my whole frame and soul. I could feel my eyes drying, cracking, from the months of crying the boy had endured. My whole body wanted to escape itself.

I couldn’t live like this. There had to be a way out. I would do anything to make this feeling stop.

I clutched my chest, holding my insides in.


I sat up in bed, panting, my shirt soaked with sweat. The nightmare seemed as real as that evening, six years ago, when my twin brother found me curled up in the corner of an abandoned classroom, still sobbing and wanting to die.

But I was alive. He had found me in time.

Unlike the boy from the hallway, who they found the next morning, sprawled on his bathroom floor with his stomach full of pills from his mother’s medicine cabinet.

Me? I haven’t touched anyone since.

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Can there ever be too much Romance in the world?

In honor of Valentine's Day and all things romantic, my e-book "MASTER OF EMOTION" will be available for only $.99 on Smashwords and Amazon during the month of February.

I love romance! I love it in my novels, my movies, my own writing, and especially in my marriage;) I'm a huge fan.

But as writers, it's a fine line we walk between "appropriate" and "titillating." We want our romantic scenes to be attention-getting. We want to emotionally engage our readers.

I'm often torn between pleasing a mother who wants me to "make the kissing scenes good" and keeping the scenes appropriate for my 12-year-old friends and 15-year-old daughter. So how much is too much?

Too much information can produce a physical response, a thrill that runs from your lips to your toes. At times, my temperature has significantly risen as I've finished reading a romantic scene from a "clean" novel. Although the feeling is pleasurable, do I want my young daughter to have the same response? And is it really appropriate for me either?

I've appreciated guidance lately from new guidelines from "For the Strength of Youth" on "Entertainment and Media," "Sexual Purity," and "Dating."




As I edited my new e-book "MASTER OF EMOTION" for final publishing, I actually cut a few scenes and moments that might have approached my line between"appropriate" and "titillating." Better safe than sorry, I decided. But my line might be different from someone else's. So what do you think? How did I do? If you haven't read "MASTER OF EMOTION," yet, you might want to take advantage of the $.99 price this month.

So, to you other "clean" writers out there: Where do you draw your line between "appropriate" and "titillating?" How do you balance creating an emotional response and a physical response?

I would love to hear your thoughts and comments.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Win a free e-book "Master of Emotion!

One of my favorite blogs, Mormon Mommy Writers at:

is giving away a free copy of my e-book "Master of Emotion" on Monday, January 9th. If you become a follower, you can earn the chance to win a free copy in your format of choice. I'm hoping I'll win one of the many prizes.  Check them out!